The last one?

I thought it was only me but there are others who are thinking on the same lines too. One of my most favourite bloggers has decided to stop writing. I sort of used to see a bit of myself in what she wrote. I never wrote anything about a lot of things that I would generally love to sit and chit-chat about, because it was already there on her blog. But today it isn't and something is amiss.

When I first started this blog, the one thing I wanted to do was to constantly ask myself how deep the rabbit hole goes? How long can I keep writing about the stuff that I write about ? Sadly I've lost most of those sentiments. Maybe because there is a different question I'm asking myself. Maybe something else. Maybe because, like her, I too am a bit selfish when it comes to me. Like Sharukh Khan puts it, it's always about me, my stardom, my family, my wife, my world, etc, etc...

In these 2 + something years as a blogger, I've written about a lot of stuff. Stuff which might not even make sense now. Ok, agreed everything has it's own place, serious contemplations, moments to laugh at, poetic reflections, etc, etc... but then change is inevitable. Change comes back to haunt us because it's the only permanent thing in life. I'm an optimist, not as big an optimist as Andy in Shawshank Redmption, but an optimist nevertheless. I see this as a sign that a phase has just passed. Maybe it's time to move on. Not necesarilly to greener pastures but also to some drylands with only forage bushes around.

Today as I stand on a crossroad, I don't know if it's a goodbye or just a hibernation, but whatever it is, i'll come to know about it in due time. Till then I'll just pretend this space was never mine...

till then adios!
sashidhar

5 reasons why IMDB is bad

imdb is a very good resource when it comes to movies, movies and tv shows' trivia. everything is fine except the top 250 list. For some stupid reason, it's going to the dogs. :( but why?? here's why

1. God Father part 2 in 3rd place. ok agreed i go gaga over dark knight and all but godfather part 2 is definitely not better than dark knight. Dark Knight never deserved this kind of a treatment x-(

2. Once upon a time in west on 19th position. anyone who has seen the movie will agree that the movie is boring and the plot has been stretched more than the elastic of a sagging underwear. it is a disgrace in the name of western classics.

3. Fight club in 23rd position. were the hell did all that junta go who say that fight club is one of their favouritist movies? i feel it should be somewhere in top 15

4. Forrest Gump in 46th position. need I say anything more? if tom hanks ever saw it, he would feel bad for all the running he did and the bullet he took in his ____.

5. Annie Hall and Ratatouille beyond 100. Someone once told me that you can tell if a movie is great if u find any 10 min sample of the movie good. Atleast on that basis, Ratatouille and Annie Hall are both very good movies and deserve to be atleast in top 100.

atleast this is what i feel :|

My decadence

It all started with the fever. The fever's gone but the feeling's still there. I don't feel like sitting in front of the computer and work. How can one sit in front of the computer when one can instead go out and roam? The weather is so totally awesome. Cloudy and breezy. One would want to take an umbrella, go out and walk in the rain.

Nothing seems to inspire me to sit in front of the machine. I've walked atleast 5-6 kms in the last two days hoping to "find" inspiration. I've spent hours doing nothing, hoping that, the activity of doing nothing will frustrate me and I'll start doing something. But no! nothing is working!! Is this it? is this My Decadence??

Standing on the edge of a cliff,
I look down the abyss, so very deep
No thought, no plan, I make a leap.
Too bad, I didn't jump well.
There were rocks down under, I hit them.
Hit one and broke my arm.
Though much was the pain, it wasn't the end.
I hit another and broke my neck.
As I lay on the ground, the last thing that came to me -
show me how deep the abyss is...
atleast the next time, I'll not try this.

totally random phone calls

There was a girl. Her name was Swapna. There was a guy, Madhav. Swapna and Madhav were chums and most prolly used to hang out together. It so happened they gave each other their numbers. So instead of our classic, thoroughly tested technique of giving the other guy a miss call and recording the number, they "gave" each other their numbers. It so happened that Madhav gave his number as 9989314387, which was the number of this guy by the name Sashidhar. Blissfully unaware, Sashidhar was browsing the net when he got the first call.

tring-tring!! tring-tring!!
###I pick up the phone and without our usual hello, she starts!###
Swapna - enti madhav phone enduku cheyatiledu?? :( What's up Madhav?? why aren't you calling me??
Sashidhar - ok, i think...., meeku wrong number aiyindi! ikkada Madhav undadu!! idi sashidhar :) I think u've got the wrong number. Madhav doesn't live here. This is sashidhar.
Swapna okkkk... sorry.

###Two minutes later, my mobile rings again and it's the same number###
Swapna - hello madhav! nuvva?? Hello, Madhav! is it you??
Sashidhar - nopes! this is still sashidhar. meeru oka pani cheyandi. naaku madhav number chappandi. crosscheck ceddamu! tell me madhav's number. let's crosscheck it!
Swapna ok ###pauses for a few seconds and### 99894314387. that is the number.
Sashidhar ###ok, this Madhav dude has really done it this time! gave my number to her!!### ok... meeru number correct chepparu, but ikkada Madhav undadu! You've given the correct number, but this isn't Madhav's number. ###and i keep the phone###

###a minute later, i get the phone again. You might ask why do i even bother it. Why don't I ignore the call.. But the thing is the day had been boring till now and something was needed for timepass###
Swapna - Hello! Madhav?? lepote sashi?? Hello. Madhav? or is it still sashi??
Sashidhar - It's Sashidhar. Still the wrong number... :X
Swapna - ok... oka pani cheyavaa... me pakka inti lo Madhav ani everena untara?? vaadu maybe me phone number ichaadu! ok... do one thing. check if you have Madhav living around you. Maybe that's why he gave me your phone number.
Swapna Sorry ikkada evearu Madhav ledu! Sorry! There is no Madhav!! ###and hung up###

###then go to drink water, have a small chat with this guy near the water cooler and come back to the room in about 10 min and I see that I have already got 2 missed calls from her!!! A minute later, she calls again. Girl in distress!!###
Swapna - hello, Sashidhar? Madhav dorkeda?? Hello sashidhar! did u get Madhav!!???!! :O
Sashidhar - ok... first nenu madhav ki etakavanki vella ladu. inka ikkada Madhav undadu. Nenu hostel lo untanu. naku telusu, na pakkana evaru untaro! first, I didn't go searching for Madhav and second, I live in a hostel. I know who lives around me! ###shit! why did I ever have to say that!!!###
Swapna - Hostel aa?? College lo unnava?? e college?? Hostel?? U r in college or what?? which college?
###now why did she ever have to ask that! something stupid is going on here!###
Sashidhar - iiit - hyderabad.
Swapna - okkkkk... sorry for the phone calls. Bye.
###felt kinda sad for her. Wasted three phone calls and still din't get hold that Madhav dude!!###

With this incident I am actually reminded of the Priya-Anita-Sohan incident. Wanna share it but this post is already too long. So I'll do it in the next one!

What inspires laziness?

Standing in the corridor, I was staring at the sky. The sky was clear except for these slender patches of white, as if someone had lazily painted a few strokes of white on a blue canvas. A few friends of mine had just started a game of cricket. Birds were flying in flocks over the hostel. The leaves were rustling in a sprightly fashion. All was well till I saw these wispy cotton like clouds at the horizon. Floating lazily in the air, they passed over me. The motion of the clouds was LAAAAAANGUID. Suddenly the birds disappeared, leaves went quiet. The bowler bowled an extremely lazy ball which was answered by an equally lazy stroke (and the fielder didn't even bother to follow the ball.) From what I saw, the world was lazier than a lazy donkey which sits in the sun because it's lazy to move and go into the shade. All this laziness made me feel lazy. I fell asleep and now when I wake up, I realize something. Yes! this is what inspires laziness. :D

Searching for Answers

I run from one end of the cave to the other
desperately seeking light.
I clear the haze and mist in front of my eyes
only to find more than I can take.
I Walk down streets, roads and crosses
wondering what I could have done differently.
How much ever I think, I'm still miles away from it.
That it will eventually catch up with with me
is what frightens me the most.
Like a splinter in my head,
driving me crazy, driving me mad.

Historic moments caught on camera

On weekends, when you go to the office and discover you have nothing great to do, so you decide to check out the girls' restroom [Historical Significance: Entered a girl's restroom for the first time after puberty]



You spot this prehistoric, decrepit bar. People coming out of it and lying on the road. You are totally excited and add it to the "must visit spots" in Bangalore [Historical Significance: Your favorite brand of vodka is nowhere to be seen in this desi bar :(]

Though this chick doesn't look slick and sexy in this pic, she actually was! What's more! we stalked her from Garuda Mall to Brigade road! [Historical Significance: Stalked a chick for about half a mile and managed to click a photo too :P]

It's drizzling, so you open your umbrella. A gust of wind comes and takes the wind out of your umbrella! Now that your umbrella has ditched you, it starts raining heavily :( [Historical Significance: Mother nature bitchslapping you. Caught on camera :D]



Caught on camera! what interns are upto :P
[Historical Significance: Mondays are boring 'coz you don't wanna come out of the weekend mode. Fridays don't see any work 'coz you are too excited to slip into the weekend mode.But wednesdays exhibit the eternally strong laziness and bc tendencies in all of us! :D]